My birthday was this past weekend and to be honest, it’s not always an amazing time of the year. It should be, since it’s during my favourite time of the year and I’m usually surrounded by love and family, but I tend to bully myself and let self reflection take a negative turn. I don’t like to admit it, but I’m incredibly anxious about the concept of time and how little we have of it… I don’t like to dwell too much on it, though, because I would be wasting the time I’m so scared of losing, plus it’s generally easy to shove these kinds of thoughts in an old box in the corner of my brain.
Except during my birthday.
More so than New Years, birthdays really make me think about back on what I’ve been able to do so far. I know I’ve grown so much and that I’m much further on my path than I was 1, 2, 3 years ago, and my relationship with the universe has become nothing but more enlightening. But for some reason, I can never shake this feeling that I’m just not “enough”.
This year is a little different from others – I’m more aware of the voice in my head; the one telling me the things I don’t want to hear. I used to let it consume me and break me down, but I’m in control now. I might acknowledge the voice, but I’ve already moved on. I’ve recognized my power to change my perspective, my state of mind. I’m focusing on what nurtures my soul and what helps me shine.
I’ve decided that the rest of the year (or however long it takes) is dedicated to shedding old versions of the self.
So in keeping with the theme of change and renewal, I wanted to close the summer chapter of this year with some of my favourite photos that I haven’t yet had the chance to share:
Thanks so much for sticking with me!